Have u ever felt alone ??Really ? Have you ?? Felt an emptiness inside you ?? Something which noone can fill ??? Not yr best friends , not your parents and sometimes not even yr husbands, boyfriends etc etc etc …Well , If u have read-one and if you haven’t I should say congratulations .. u are very very very very lucky !!!
Well , I fall under the first category … there are these days .. These days when u feel so lost, lonely, alone, down, sad, unsatisfied…. and the worst part is that you have absolutely no idea why !!You don’t feel like talking to people , you don’t feel like well doing anything and then everything u eat begins to feel like cardboard , you stare blankly at the screen ( computer, television ) , a 50 songs have passed on yr I-pod and u still think you are listening to the same one you heard an hour ago !! The u lift yrself with super-human effort and go to the loo and sit there for hours staring at the ceiling, looking the tiny cracks the cob-web which was due to be cleaned over a month ago, well then u slowly graduate to the couch in the living room … stuff yr face with everything possible unhealthy ( cheese fries , coke, chocolate)..and just crash there for the rest of the day. Occasionally flipping thru all the channels on TV with the same dead-pan expression and a boredom without limits.
The next day however you wake up, totally fresh, happy and normal with absolutely no trace what so ever of the previous except for the recollection of a sad waste of a whole day ( 24 hrs ) and this continues except for every once in a while this redundant, lonely, sad day pops in !!
Tell me, do you know why this happens?? and you think there will ever be a person who has that much control as to sway yr emotions make you happy and smile despite it being “one of those days”- honestly I don’t!! Well I have had some of the happiest time with my friends who have been my strength, support, joy and always been thr even during the slightest forewarning of misery but yet during one of these days “I JUST DON’T WANNA TLAK ABOUT IT” because I don’t know what the heck that feeling is … ppl trying to help gets on my nerves and I just wanna be left alone to wallow in my own misery and sorrow .Tell me if we are really so happy and thrilled with life .. and the course it is taking .. then WHY DOES THIS FEELING COME ? WHY WHY WHY ???
I don’t think I will ever know but I know those days , those days when it is just “one of those days” , those days which is worse then PMS , worse than a metallica concert with a head-ache .. those days … days which we all go through and never know why !!
Well , I fall under the first category … there are these days .. These days when u feel so lost, lonely, alone, down, sad, unsatisfied…. and the worst part is that you have absolutely no idea why !!You don’t feel like talking to people , you don’t feel like well doing anything and then everything u eat begins to feel like cardboard , you stare blankly at the screen ( computer, television ) , a 50 songs have passed on yr I-pod and u still think you are listening to the same one you heard an hour ago !! The u lift yrself with super-human effort and go to the loo and sit there for hours staring at the ceiling, looking the tiny cracks the cob-web which was due to be cleaned over a month ago, well then u slowly graduate to the couch in the living room … stuff yr face with everything possible unhealthy ( cheese fries , coke, chocolate)..and just crash there for the rest of the day. Occasionally flipping thru all the channels on TV with the same dead-pan expression and a boredom without limits.
The next day however you wake up, totally fresh, happy and normal with absolutely no trace what so ever of the previous except for the recollection of a sad waste of a whole day ( 24 hrs ) and this continues except for every once in a while this redundant, lonely, sad day pops in !!
Tell me, do you know why this happens?? and you think there will ever be a person who has that much control as to sway yr emotions make you happy and smile despite it being “one of those days”- honestly I don’t!! Well I have had some of the happiest time with my friends who have been my strength, support, joy and always been thr even during the slightest forewarning of misery but yet during one of these days “I JUST DON’T WANNA TLAK ABOUT IT” because I don’t know what the heck that feeling is … ppl trying to help gets on my nerves and I just wanna be left alone to wallow in my own misery and sorrow .Tell me if we are really so happy and thrilled with life .. and the course it is taking .. then WHY DOES THIS FEELING COME ? WHY WHY WHY ???
I don’t think I will ever know but I know those days , those days when it is just “one of those days” , those days which is worse then PMS , worse than a metallica concert with a head-ache .. those days … days which we all go through and never know why !!
6 comments:
the globe-head guy sitting on the island, that cartoon u drew is extremely cool... is he jus chilling out ther? whatever it is!! it is too cool huh!?!
I didnt draw it da :) corbis.com .. but i luv it
hmmm....im not a regular blogger but i do read a few blogs...tht wud try yours....kinda strange...its like i want to be left alone in a crowd.... if thats what ur feeling then cool ive felt the same....but ya i love being alone...to be an observer instead of a part of the crowd....though whenever i am a part of a crowd im usually the life of it...kinda strange i wud say...well i just felt kinda connected to this post....so replied...cheers
"the kid" :D
hey... its not “one of those days” for me... it happens everyday to me :(
i totally understand....
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